I have a story to tell. It may help others who have experienced similar situations. But first I have to go on this journey. A journey where I figure this out. How to navigate my story and to understand it. Understand why this is even my story. Why did I have to go through what I went through? Where was God during all of this? What does he want me to do with it? I don’t want to miss any cues as to what He has planned. Where will my story go?
The reason for all of this? I don’t know why I haven’t realized this fully until now. The main reason I have to go to the scary and uncomfortable places in my past, and confront what has been controlling my very being for all these years. It is not to feel more at peace, not to help me trust, not to find justice. I need to do this in order to rescue my soul!
The soul is way too important to allow the hurt to flourish. I have lost sight or never really had sight of God’s purpose in my life. This is what l have to do to build my life back up to face toward God rather than toward the memories of the past. The past has left too many obstacles that cloud my view of God. Not that the past has to be ignored. But it isn’t supposed to take precedence in my life. The past is like a road map of wrong paths to avoid, and right paths to find again. To build a life that faces a direction I am not used to will take adjustment and acclimating. This is going to take time. It’s going to take help from Christian friends to counsel, pray, and keep the pace with me through each step of this journey. To rush the process will overwhelm my emotions and be a serious distraction from the end result. Heaven.
This Is Me 